This life a long path, dark and light, warm and cold, smooth and rough all at the same time. A path which has already been set, by who?? No one knows. Few accept a lot rebel. Where do I stand, not known yet. For the few who accept, It is simple and happy or either they chose to be happy with what they have got and for others its a battle, this is no ordinary one, this is not between you and the other who, its the you and the you again, confusing right, hell yes the life is!! you battle with you, at times you like it, at times you don’t, at times you feel like you want to surrender at times you go Alexander!!! “I will own this world”!!! There is one thing common with both these paths; they both are joyless, life less and truth less at some point. And the best thing is we get to be in both these paths in the same journey. Is that why they say the life being “enigmatic”? At times I hate this Character called “God” what does he think of himself? Let’s never mind on that. Why I hate him is he is good and bad at the same time. Ur Good becomes my bad and he plays the same card in a different way in a different place. If he has selected this path, then I hate him more, He says “U only can go…. you can’t return!” Hey wait, but that’s what they mean a “destiny” right?? A Journey of no Return. Half way through with this road I felt like am stuck, not able to decide, have I been pushed to take this or did I choose this? The unfamiliarity swept me like a big wave… I don’t remember what I chose to do. I could not decide where I wanted to go because I did not know where I came from? When did I start this? Will this end the way I want?
Along this path, I met similar people like me, who did not know if they were happy or not or rather in simple words, they were also “confused” “trying to find meaning” just like me. We all are left with mixed feelings of Hurt, Regret, Disgrace and Beautiful memories. What is the yardstick? When I pin all them in my mind wall and bisect them into two 1. Good 2. Bad, Unfortunately I see the second winning!! While trying to freak myself on finding why? How? What? Where? And When? The following things happened. Frustrated, Disturbed, Tired and Sick. A lot of times I felt like falling into the bottom less well, a sense of drowning in the deep sea, a hand pushing me down…not letting me breath, then I wake up totally shaken to realize it was a dream. What woke me up was the humming of a little bird sitting on my window pane. At first I thought I was wrong, but I was not, it was real… it moved, i turned around, it walked and then it flew away! With its tiny wings it has started to reach the SKY with dreams to reach there and be there. Had it left I could still hear the song…a rhythm of stable beats, a finest music ever made, that’s when I wanted to say WOW! It took over my soul, it made my head feel liter and cleared all my thoughts! I started to realize there was something more in life beyond the trying to find the meaning level, there was HOPE, there was FUTURE filled with all new days, the days we have never seen…it could be sunny it could be snowy, but then the music taught me do the most important thing, it showed me how to TRUST and showed me why I needed PATIENCE and I learnt that life is not to be understood or not to be meant. It is to be enjoyed, experienced & shared. I learn that the roads are two but every traveler’s HOPE is same!! THE aim is to REACH, The mission is to touch every lives with Hope and Happiness and to unlearn a LOT!! All at the same time with abundance of FAITH.
