Now to the more serious stuff… Am sitting on the 4th day of the last month of this year, something made me go through what I have done in the past 11 months.
Every year comes with new hopes, new promises and new kind of shit that you wouldn’t have the least idea of how much it would stink. but then we still are soooo excited and eager / looking forward for this.
2006 left me Love Stuck, Non Single, Blind and with all Smiles..! The ‘07 came with a much hype of being a ‘007 (Do not forget “Daniel Craig” here. am i the only person who think he looks soooooooooo gay??).
Jan: Happily married (Ahem….Ahem), Cold, Managing things at work, was still working on my wardrobe (I moved in with my in-laws) Had difficulties writing .07 in the end of the date. Making arrangements for my Bday coming up. Apprehensive like hell about the whole “In-Law” thing.
Feb: Yuuuuuu Huuuuu…..My Month it was. Was good at work. My bday was on the 6th. My hubs gave me a Surprise Expensive gift…and more than that …he remember the 14th and send me flowers!! 
) Dint do much but was happy that’s all I could remember now.
Mar: The end of the quarter we call @ work. No Good. Totally screwed, my prof sucked. Life was good. Had my sweety with me…things went on…and my in-laws were good too…and then it happened. Had my first fight with my sweety. Lot of pain. Felt like was drowning in a jar of disgust..! after few days of agonizing myself with self-pity and blah blah blah…ended our “arguments” over a drink. Much expected movie of Tamil cinema “Shivaji” was released. The entire office went to witness the same on the screen.
April: Chennai was getting Hot…Bloody HOTTTTTE. The Sun was shining upon us literally..! Did good shopping this, I still remember the lump on the throat when I had a first look at my card bills…he he..! Was slogging my ass out on the office. Got a new PC, Met new people, tried being friend with them and failed..! Met this chic, new colleague, was working in my team, she was 20 (kidooooo? who else don’t agree on this?) and had a BF from Pattiyala, whom she had met very few times and loved him to death which was over the fucking chatting room. One fine day babe comes with a small bag, tell me that she has a friend out waiting for lunch, promised to come back in 1 hr and never tuned up…(yeah u are guessing it right…she made a sexy plan to elope to that guy). My fucking screwed up intuition took over me completely; ‘babe’ and I did some CIA work, found her waiting for the Indian Airlines flight to Delhi..! And then the rest is history of how I became the official “anti love bitch”.
May: He was traveling a lot on work. I had no where to go…so to make me feel better I went to movies..! and kept myself occupied being the “bahu rani” of the house. I love cooking, blew a 700 on Tarla Dalal books and showed my culinary skills to folks. Impressive. Work again sucked, full time. It was getting monotonous make me reconsider lot things right from changing my bath soap to the way I sit at work. People who think FengShui and Vaastu Saastra are good for fools take down my number.
June: His bday, he was excited at not being alone for his bday after 32 yrs. Made him feel special..;). Got him designer “Sherwani”. Was being a perfect bitch at work due to my “cantstandfuckheads” attitude. Was witnessing my own downfall and made a decision I should move my ass out of that company.
July : Life personally – Good. Life at work – not good. Started liking food with less salt, less spice. Learnt how to compromise on things and learnt a new word “Adjust”. Learnt how to give things and not expect believe me. it’s all GOOD the only difficulty is that I am taken over by the “Other Me” in me and behave absofreakingloutely Pathetic about these things. With the due course of things, managed to find a job, not great pay but promised me good things. I had put my papers in my current company. Me and ‘M’ went to Mumbai to join our new “promising” company. The trip was good. The return was even better, how much we laughed at Indian Airlines and was equally amazed that people still fly on that crapy airlines. ‘babe’ would def laugh when she reaches this sentense of the post..wouldnt u babe??
Aug : “Ding” Rings the bell……Am out of my job which I had for the past 3.5yrs. There are certain things that you don’t want to do, but end up doing. That month was one…! Joined a new comp. Lot of promises. Full of hope. Thrilled.
Sep : Traveled a LOT (on work). Loved IT!! By this time, fights in marriage were a package deal, it’s a compulsive riders. Was getting along the grove. We were nearing out 1st Anniversary. Amazed at the fact that I/ him put up with us. Made plans. Was blushing all the time when called in the middle of the work to discuss abt our trip. The new Work…blame my rotten luck or the rotten “Ding” boss or the fucked up “The premium” Client of US. Wait a min they all had one thing in Common, they were all so..”Screwed up” jus like me I should say. Watched lot of movies, I don’t remember how many season of FRIENDS I would have completed watching. Got addicted to Praveenas coffee and grew claustrophobic to Anand’s uncanning sense of humor. 
Getting along is the WORD !
Oct : Family = Good. Was expecting the “Rookie” (my hubs brother) to come back to India for vacation. He is fun. Planed for a trip to exotic kerala and changed the same. Finalized and was yearning to pay a visit to His Great Shrine “Shirdi”. A Thanks giving to the GOD. Did a fantastic two day travel in train, taxi and bus all over to a dryyyyyyyyyy village in Maharastra, the one good thing is it was a pilgrimage and he loves traveling and talking abt the places he visited and Me.. I loved the Glow on his eyes when ever he “spoke” about his traveling exp and while he explains how the “railway dept” works. I saw a new Him. Like it. Well I am undergoing a superfonic transformation of basic genetics from being a woman to a new species called “Wife”. Did a trip to b’lore on work to meet my boss. I should have reminded myself and the other me about the movies like “briget jones” and etc…there are HOT & Single Bosses available which does not make things easy to stay married. That was an unbelievable trip. The only trip I looooooved the “Board Room”. Was Shamelessly drooling over my boss. I shall stop here !!
Nov : The “Rookie” lands at home. In my mind I replaced the clock hanging on the living room with the “rookies” picture. YES the house was functioning on HIS biological clock. FUCK is not the word!!!! Words like “adjust” and “being good” saved my ass. Work, have you guys heard of a saying like “things are not the way it seems” if not, do mail/scrap/call ME. Guess what “Rookie” got hooked…ha ahaaaaa! Am getting a new role to play “Sister-in-law” or “sister-outof-law”.
Dec : 4 days gone so far, “rookie” is still on the wall!!! Looks like the work would look good in the coming days (obviously after a call with my boss..he he he he). Going through this “stuck between the rock and the hard place” with him. As of now the status is “Fuck IT” “Things can be better” “I deserve better things” ” I can handle anything” pick your fav.
What’s there in store ??? no one knows, no freaking tarot card reader would tell us what is in for us..! And even if some one do know ….I don’t want to hear it. what’s the fun in knowing things even before they happen? I’ve learnt this word “enigma” from him and liked it quite a bit, guess life should be like that. Unpredictable ! Not trying to sound dramatic ! As I was mentioning, like every 365 does, the one to come also has its own share of “high”, “low” & “blah” moments. What am I gonna do.? making a list on how I want this year to be. Seeing how far I can stick on to that……nevertheless still wishing to make me a better person, who can handle the kind of crap which the “almighty” throws upon me.
GOD …… Give me more tissues !!
It’s all abt Love..
A.J
