Anthology, ME!

Dreamer, dream more, dream lots. Eat, eat more, and eat lots. Plan. Not worrying about the plan. Impulsive decisions, absolute Zero regret, falling in love, falling really hard, crying about everything silly, trying things that are difficult. Thinking about Mom more than Madhu. Feeling really sad for Dad. Foot very firm on the ground. Not forgetting the past. Looking back on the fact that I studied in “Govt School”, LMFAO about it, feeling pity about people who laughed at me. Being in touch with every single friend of mine from the past! Feeling the knot in the stomach tighten as I go past my school! Realised that money is not THE parameter also learnt how imperative that can be! Seeing the disparity between looking modern and thinking modern. Breaking barriers of being a Tam Bram. Seeing how small a place west mambalam was! Missing it a great deal! Proud to differ the way I look. Patience is indeed a virtue. Wonder every time how the Apollo Hospital “Canteen Thatha” still remembers my name and the Room No we were in. Never felt the need to explain myself to anyone. I still remember the first guy who tried to woo me buy giving a box full of Tic Tac (I was in the 2nd STD)! Learning not to Judge, Not getting judged. Slogging my ass off to work the marriage and loving every single effort of it. Still trying hard to make a perfect round “Chappathi”. Seen the interest rate of personal loans hit sky! My never fading crush on certain people , attempts to understand the complexity of human mind. Failed miserably every time! At peace with the idea some one being a Hypocrite but cant stand when they show it me! Marveled by Illayaraja’s music. Hypnotized while listening! Feeling silly when I cry while watching certain movies, even worse while caught doing so! Never getting tired of Filter Coffee’s, Gobi’s, Vodka’s, “Michale, Madana Kama Rajan”, Beach, Work, Blue color and being self obsessed! Understood that loving some one you got is lot easier than not being loved by someone you dint get! Seeing things as they are. Looking forward to goof up something new! Aching for few things I’ve lost! Going down the memory lane, again and again, brushing up those dusty frames time to time. Making sure that I don’t get bored, making list of things that I haven’t done before. Trying to understand. Been misunderstood! Killing time starting over the window, suddenly remembered the need to make a call, collecting the “déjà vu’s” I’ve had and making a collage of my life through words

As the number grows!

Tut… tut…

What did I see? On the orkut profile?

Female: age 26.

I remember seeing the same thing show 24…! How do days run so fast? I don’t have the slightest idea of what I’ve been usefully doing? Other than the fact that I bitched and cried and ate and slept a lot! Seeing this number grow gives me tremors in the bottom of my stomach. Am approaching the horrendous number 30! Wait a min what would people who are already in 30 think? Is it always like this!? Do men worry about growing old? I am scared of growing old. The trouble is when people want you to act/talk your age or make you feel silly when you do certain things!

Here is the real trouble. I still want to dance on top my bed every time I hear Guns and roses. I still want to jump at the first sight of rain. I so bloody want to lick my fingers while I eat. I still think I can scratch my itches! Without any shame! Anytime! My heart aches when I see a bunch of kids playing hide and seek. I still want to do nothing but jus yell “maaaaaaaaa am hungry” .Its justifiable for anyone (at least me) to own couple of Barbie’s and power puff girls. I don’t want to be judged just because I can relate to “Tom & Jerry” better than “Matrix”. You see I still have a solid crush on Archie! But then am I expect to lose these things in the days coming by? Is there any way where we can still do all these things and look like 26 and so on?

Quizzed to life!!

1) Smoked a cigarette?: Have witness for this too!! Shit!!

2) Crashed a friend’s car?: Crashed ONLY one CAR

3) Stolen a car?: Life aint that bad yet!

4) Been in love?: Totally!!

5) Been dumped?: Alter Ego says “NO”

6) Shoplifted?: Shamelessly !!

7) Been in a fist fight?: First and Fight : Both “YESH”

Snuck out of your parent’s house?: Wasn’t that adventurous.

9) Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?: Arrrg!!! That Kills !

10) Been arrested?: Refer Q three.

11) Gone on a blind date?: Blind yes : No Date.

12) Skipped school?: He He! Bribed the “office boy” too.

13) Been on a plane?: Yeppy!

14) Seen someone die?: Unfortunately YES! Heartbreakingly SO YES !

15) Been to Canada?: Does seeing in MAP counts or having friends there??

16) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire?: Why Why Why would some do such things? Refer Q three!

17) Been jet-skiing?: I will never!!

18) Met someone in person from the Internet?: OH YES!!! Shashi Shankar Gopal “The weirdo’s KING”

19) Taken pain killers?: I buy Saridon along with my grocery.

20) Flown a kite?: Yeah, Exactly a 15yrs before!

21) Built a sand castle?: Yes. Refer answer above!

22) Gone puddle jumping?: Jumping Poodle! Nah.

23) Cheated while playing a game?: Lost count. Only when I was a kid now NO!

24) Been lonely?: Shucks Hell YES ! Terrible!

25) Fallen asleep at work or school/college?: All three Locations, Graciously YES !

26) Used a fake ID?: No

27) Felt an earthquake?: Oooooooooo HHHH yes!! Very Recently!

28) Touched a snake?: Yep! Was toooooooooooo soft and creepy. I washed my hands with 5 different soaps after that!!

29) Slept beneath the stars?: Yeah… Thanks to the Power Cut options given by TamilNadu Electricity Board. “TERRACE”

30) Been robbed?: Thank GOD NO!

31) Been misunderstood?: Always !

32) Won a contest?: Yeah. Nothing to do with Quiz or GK or whatever!

33) Run a red light/stop sign?: I haven’t completed my driving classes yet!

34) Been suspended from school?: WHY??? WHY???

35) Been in a car accident?: Again Thank God for small mercies!

36) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night?: Ah…. In one shot!!.

37) Walked the streets drunk?: Been tipsy, High, Never Ever DRUNKEN! Oh yeah Smashed!! But not DRUNK !

38) Had déjà vu?: ahahahah !! U won’t believe I had a feeling I’ve already lived!!

39) Danced in the moonlight?: Would love to! But who will dance with me? Madhu???? NOOOOOOOOOOO he cant move to save his ass!!

40) Witnessed a crime?: Thankfully NO

41) Been obsessed with post-it notes?: I still think they make us look very geeky, I love them!

42) Squished barefoot through the mud?: Yeahhhh

43) Been lost?: Not on the Road. Others YES !

44) Been on the opposite side of the country?: Which is the opposite side of our country???

45) Swum in the ocean?: I don’t get along well with WATER !! Hey I do Bath daily!

46) Cried yourself to sleep?: Lost count!

47) Played cops and robbers?: ahahhah refer answer above!

48) Recently colored with crayons: Its been a long time since I colored!

49) Sung karaoke?: No.

50) Paid for a meal with only coins?: More than a few times!

51) Done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?: Isn’t that what I do every time!???

52) Made prank phone calls?: Yeah to kill time yes! ONCE !

53) Caught a snow flake on your tongue?: I live in Chennai. Something close to snow was seen once we had a hailstorm!

54) Written a letter to Santa Claus?: Ahhh I don’t come from that background you see!

55) Blown bubbles?: Oh yes. U get these really funky ones in “Pondy Bazzar”

56) Bonfire on the beach?: Bonfire – YES. Beach – YES. BOTH Together – NO.

57) Cheated on a test?: Hehe !

58) Gone skinny-dipping in a pool? Refer answer Q 45

Ze Obsession !!

Just like that

What have I been doing??

- Work is good.
- I love this Job
- Don’t know when this status could change!!
- I have a colleague who keeps saying “Yaam I Taking with Mr.***” its so bloody funny! Yes i can see what you guys think! I am a Cheap @#$#$@ !
- have a Quarterly target, am on a self wt reduction program, how this happened was because of a stupid bet with him on the EURO finals! The plan as of now is very unsuccessful! possibly catastrophe written allover. Eating more yummy items than i normally do
- I have two mobile phones!
- One good thing is, am reading a lot!
- Nothing to Bitch about & its bloody boring :P !!