I have not waited for anything this bad. The reason being, I leave it to the time to decide. But, now, I could not. I just could not. I couldn’t concentrate on anything, even on this post. I spilled my tea in the morning… And broke the beautiful cup in the office, then I dropped my mobile on the floor and saw it shatter in to pieces one in all the directions. There are about 7 odd mails which need my response; I want to, alas, I could not even make sense of what is written on them. Let alone replying! I wish the earth could just split open and take only me inside. The feeling in the stomach, indescribable! It’s like standing on edge of the wall, not having anything to hold, the ground beneath your feet giving away, and all not working out at all. I am scared to death. I am pale; I just saw my face in the mirror. It’s the first time ever in my life I am losing control of myself. I just want a remote with SKIP, ERASE, FORWARD and then PLAY on it. I never want to face another day like this ever again in my life. I need help, I need MIRACLE desperately!
